Tuesday, October 20, 2009


I’m in the process of I guess you could call it “finishing” my kitchen. A couple of weeks ago I painted the large wall in there, red. Then I painted my table and chairs black. I found a new picture to hang and ordered some uppercase living for 2 of the walls. I've only put up one of the uppercase living decals though. Now,I’m waiting on the cabinet and microwave stand I ordered. They are white, so I’m hoping it looks OK, otherwise I may have to paint them too! And before I put the new picture up and the other uppercase living, I have to fix the trim on the red wall – because I’m not the best painter and there may be some, a lot of spots that don’t look so hot.
I guess you can tell from reading above that the main colors in my kitchen are red and black (if not, read again…) so Sunday night Leslie came over to help me hang the uppercase living decals and we were thinking about what all I need to do in the kitchen and she says “First thing you need to do, is get rid of the ORANGE thing over there” If you must know it’s actually a footed soup bowl with a lid that was given to me by my memaw Pearl. So it’s been hard for me to not have it out but it really doesn’t match ANYTHING. I guess I will need to put it out of sight for decorative sake, sorry memaw!
I'll definitely post some pics when I'm all finished

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Jehovah Shalom

October is a hard month for me. I’ve said this a million times but really there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about my mom, but the 1st half of October (Oct 9th – Day she died & Oct 13th – Day of her Funeral) it’s like a flood of depressing thoughts that go through my head. I think about all the events that led up to her death, I think about the week that she was on life support and the decision that my dad had to make to let her go and how hard it must have been. I think about my grandparents and how this was the 2nd child of theirs that they had to bury. I think about my aunt and how at that time was supposed to be a happy time for her because she was pregnant with her 2nd child. I think about how the day after my mom’s funeral was my best friend’s birthday and I probably didn’t wish her a Happy Birthday. I could go on and on.....
and I don’t want to feel like I do because I know that Jehovah Shalom gives me peace and on these days that I feel like I need Him more, I take comfort in knowing that “Blessed are those that mourn, for they shall be comforted” and “Weeping may endure for the night, but joy comes in the morning”
Today is one of those days and I know I’ll get through it – I’ve been doing it for 23years. And that’s all I have to say about that.

Saturday, October 3, 2009


There’s not a day that goes by, that I don’t think about mom, especially on the days that I do Meals on Wheels. My mom worked as a Nutrition Specialist for Senior Nutrition Services. She worked at different centers that would provide lunches for senior citizens and Meals on Wheels comes out of that. The first time I did MOW, I went into the senior center and had flashbacks of when I would go to work with mom. The seniors were sitting around playing cards and talking (like they used to), the food smelled horrible (as it always did!) but they loved it! And they would have loved her! (but then again who didn’t)

Thursday, October 1, 2009

All the answers?

I was reading a devotional today and the passage of scripture that it used was Ephesians 4:31-32;
Get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words, and slander, as well as all types of evil behavior. Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you.
Wow! How about that for telling us like it is?! I think one of the hardest things to do in that passage is "forgiving one another". Why do we find it so hard to forgive people? I think that we find it hard because we don’t want to let go of the fact that this person hurt us. You know you say, “I forgive you” but when you see that person or talk to someone about that person, it’s almost like you want to say to them “oh remember when you hurt me? But I forgave you! But really, you did hurt me.” Are we truly forgiving them?
And then what about forgiving someone when you feel like you’ve done nothing wrong, but they seem to think you have? How does that work? Are you the one that should take the 1st step to reconcile your relationship? Or because you feel you’ve done nothing wrong, do you wait for them? Shouldn’t they want to mend your relationship? It’s really all a big mystery! I don’t have all the answers. I wish I did!