Jehovah Shalom

October is a hard month for me. I’ve said this a million times but really there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about my mom, but the 1st half of October (Oct 9th – Day she died & Oct 13th – Day of her Funeral) it’s like a flood of depressing thoughts that go through my head. I think about all the events that led up to her death, I think about the week that she was on life support and the decision that my dad had to make to let her go and how hard it must have been. I think about my grandparents and how this was the 2nd child of theirs that they had to bury. I think about my aunt and how at that time was supposed to be a happy time for her because she was pregnant with her 2nd child. I think about how the day after my mom’s funeral was my best friend’s birthday and I probably didn’t wish her a Happy Birthday. I could go on and on.....
and I don’t want to feel like I do because I know that Jehovah Shalom gives me peace and on these days that I feel like I need Him more, I take comfort in knowing that “Blessed are those that mourn, for they shall be comforted” and “Weeping may endure for the night, but joy comes in the morning”
Today is one of those days and I know I’ll get through it – I’ve been doing it for 23years. And that’s all I have to say about that.